Am I Apathetic?

Oh my God!  I just realized that the feelings that I had before until recently, yung walang pakialam, e baka symptoms na yun na ako pala ay isang apathetic.

Apathetic -ap·a·thet·ic

ˌapəˈTHedik/

adjective

adjective: apathetic

showing or feeling no interest, enthusiasm, or concern.

"apathetic slackers who don't vote"

synonyms:

uninterested, indifferent, unconcerned, unmoved, uninvolved, disinterested, unemotional, emotionless, dispassionate, lukewarm, unmotivated, halfhearted;

Yan ang definition ayon sa internet.

Shucks! Akong ako yan. Yan ang nararamdaman ko. But come to think of it, that's how I feel when I am in the place where I felt I don't belong anymore. San to? Secret! Tsaka na when I've made the biggest decision in my life na.

Bakit I felt I don't belong na? My heart is not in it na. I want to do something else already not this thing that I currently do. Am I apathetic na ba? Or it's just that my focus is on another thing that I want to do ?

Help! Anyone  who feels the same way I do ? I need your response, kasi nakakatakot pala ang ganitong status. Walang pakialam......

Nabasa ko, baka sysmptoms din ito ng Bipolar Disorder. Hay nakakatakot! Help! Help!Help!